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No subject today, no. [16 Nov 2005|07:25pm]
Hey yall!

Wow it's been a minute, haha.
I haven't been up to much at all, it's really sad. I've lost touch with 99% of my friends and I'm just, chillin. That's all there really is to do in these small towns.

But not too much different. I really miss Mary Beth, I never get to see her. It just feels weird because I'm uncomfortable around people that are friends with... that fucking girl. Ew. I won't even put her name on here. I just wish things didn't always get so FUCKING FUCKED up.

Did see Remi a few times recently. She's doing well which lifts alot of weight off my shoulders. I always wonder what she's doing and shit.

anyway peace.
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[28 Jul 2005|03:18pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I never update my lj.
It's ok that I forget about it though because really it's a waste of time.

Except right now, I'm so bored.
At work with Andy.
Talk to you in like, 6 months.


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[25 Apr 2005|09:30am]
[ mood | chipper ]

I forgot live journal even existed.
Funny, huh?

I LOVE JANELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and all the fun things we get to do together.
and i love my beautiful boyfriend.
and everyone else.

summer is on the way.
i can feel it in my BONES! The good weather makes me smile.
I love you mary beth!
and me and janelle love watching the lion king while under the infuluence.
good, good, good.


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[08 Apr 2005|08:45am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

i havent gotten on the computer in like 4 years because i realized it was just stupid and pointless and usually i have better things to do.

but im at school in the computer lab and this seemed better than my work.

well i really have none. i got dropped from school, re-instated, spring's finally here.
and the weather is nice.
and i'm having fun doing what i do.
and i loveeeeeeeeeeeee it.

and i loveeeeeee my friends.
and i loveeeeeee. everything.

haha, im crazy.

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[30 Jan 2005|09:30am]
[ mood | happy ]


i hate winter, it's really, really cold.
i've been spending the shitty weather with emily, james, andy, leroy, molly and t-walk.

whoever anonymously replied to my last post so rudely...
fuck off.
do not suggset that patrick is anything less than great.


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Happy.Fucking. NEW YEARS. [01 Jan 2005|12:56am]
[ mood | high and pisssssed. ]

happy new years

I hope yours was more enjoyablee than mine.
My Christmas season was a horrible, not-so-joyous holiday blur.
I was upset all through Christmas because of Patrick..everything is fine now. Kindof. But thank God nothing crazy went down. Because it was stressful enough anyway. I'm genuinley glad that he is OK. But X-Mas was a downer.
Was/is a different story.
I hung out with Patrick all day, he's been staying with me for like 2 days and this is the first time since then I haven't been with him, he's with Kyle. Having fun I'm sure. I've been hanging out with Annie and Sarah party hopping and doing stupid bullshit and ringing in the new year with the same shit we do every night. Ran into Matt who 'wanted to hang out with me' which really meant he was drunk and wanted me to come over so he could...? Right..make out with some ugly girl.

What can you do.

I hate drunks, I hate people drinking, it brings out the worst in EVERYONE, no matter who you are or what you say, or how much you drink or how fucking cool you are. Alcohol is insane and ridiculous and makes you sick and stupid.
I wish people just did drugs.
Because druggies are always laid back and tolerable.
Well not always.
I cannot get ahold of Andy and I REALLY wanted to be with him at midnight<3.

But this year ended up blowing a big fucking cock.

However the gifts from X-Mas were nice.
I can't stop piddling around the point...why do I still care about Matt? Haven't we all decided he's an ungrateful piece of shit? And do I hang out with people that are like that?
SO what's wrong here, hm?
</b>Someone please tell me, I can't figure out my own life.</b>

Even on New Years, the only thing I want to do is fucking chill with Patrick and get fucked up and pass out at my house. Cause that's what we always do.
I guess a new year isn't really a big deal.
Wah wah wah.

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[24 Dec 2004|10:22pm]
[ mood | fuckedup ]

Well the dance was very nice.
I did NOT get fucked up before hand.
I went out to eat at a nice restaraunt with some nice friends.
My date was/is the most adorable, sweet boy I've ever met.
My dress held up nicely.
I danced nonstop for like, 3 hours.
I got to ride in a limo.
And it was a fun night.
My date was too shy to dance, or maybe as he said, he's bad at it.
I got him to participate in a few songs though.
And I gave him a little kiss.
I couldn't help it yall. He is so precious I just want to eat.him.up.

And I finished Christmas shopping today..I ended up getting Patrick a pair of PJs, a hat, 2 sweaters, a Sublime patch, a blanket, and I made him a cool collage.
I brought them over for him to open this evening but he was/has been upset so it wasn't as joyous as I had been planning.
He keeps hanging out with Azalea.
She is a good for nothing, piece of shit, dirty, lying, using, self centered, fucked up waste of air. I.HATE.HER.
She doesn't do anything good for Patrick.
Why would you want that?

Beth is in Mexico, Emily's in VA Beach, Annie's somewhere with her fam.
I am all alone on X-Mas except for my boys [Paddy and Matt].
I can't wait for Emily to get home..we're going to have loads of fun with our Christmas money and Andy and Leroy =D heh heh heh.

yeah I know, old news but I talked to her mom the other night and oh my god I want to see it so bad. I LOVE BABIES. Or at least hers.

"Every day I love her just a little bit more
a little bit more, a little bit more
everyday i love her just a little bit more and she loves me
the same.
so baby if you wanna get low
baby if you wanna get high.
It makes no sense at all...
...I saw red.
I saw red, I saw red
one more secret lover that I shot dead."

Well, Merry Christmas Eve, everyone.

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[22 Dec 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

Winter break has started out amazingly..

Tuesday..we got out of school. Early. Me, Seth, and Emily hung out for a while..smoked alot of herb, checked out Matt's party, went to Misty's and Cece's, basically piddled around till like 12:30 AM when Patrick started gettin upset that I wasn't at the house. So he came and picked me up with KYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYLE! And we went to hang out with his friend Richie, who was large and in charge if I can say.
Came home, Kyle left. Patrick was in a very loving mood. We took a shower together and he rubbed my back [which he NEVER hsa the patience to do]. And we stayed up until about 7 AM this morning just dicking off and then went and slept on the futon.
So I didn't call mom and dad till 3 PM today and they're in fucking Roanoke..they know my Winter dance is tonight =( Those motherfuckers are SO SPITEFUL.

So my plan?
Go to Quizno's.

Hope this dance is fun tonight, everyone else seems to be tottering on their toes to go so maybe I'll have a nice time.

Kate, niggy - I'm sorry I got you in trouble. I didn't mean to, you know that.


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[20 Dec 2004|03:27pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Soo school sucks, alot.
I can't find one single part of the day that I enjoy except for the part where Teara gave me cornrows today.

I want Winter break to be here NOW. Everyone's home from college, parties have already started..and most people are already out. I would skip but I would get dropped from school. And I can't do that because...I have already put out SO much effort to go everyday for the past 3 weeks.

And now I'm sitting at Patrick's, he's asleep, and I'm bored.
Fuck this.
The pregamming is almost complete, niggys. Hail to the upcoming break and to HELL with this weather!!!

Winter dance is Wednesday. I love reasons to get messed up and go in public. Haha. The tradition and idea of it all is really juveneille but all the same I plan to enjoy my evening with CAMMY, KATE, and my hot freshie.<3.

I love my life. I never thought I'd say that, but I LOVE IT! I am never offended, and therefore never involved in drama. I mean, it goes perfectly hand-in-hand..there is no way you can get me in your drama or your life if I don't want to be, and as much as youd try, It wont matter becasue YOU DONT MAKE ME MADDDDDd.
I have a beautiful, caring best friend who keeps my heart beating every day, I have lovely parents who spoil me and let me do about whatever I want, there is nothing that I want so bad I'm going to have a baby over it, so I can't become unhappy over materialistic items [unless it is a drug..what can i say, i cant help it]. I've completely changed..I am more laid back and calm than most anyone. I just drift and make people happy.
This is the way life is supposed to be.
I only regret two things in my whole life:
1) Losing Remi, the only person I could/still can see me spending the 'rest of my life with' [in a non-lesbian way]
2) Messing up things with Jodean and her family
And I've learned that all things heal with time. And I know these things will to.
This is just the way life is supposed to be.
Haha I rock your mom's vagina right off.


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[19 Dec 2004|10:43am]
[ mood | alright. ]

This weekend has been enjoyable, knowing that I only have 1 1/2 days of school left before Christmas breaaaaaaaaak.
Friday night I ate some shrooms and hung out at Kelly's with Patrick and Emily..
Man I was geekin out.
Emily wanted to make prank phone calls (STILL funny at our age). So she calls a gun store, and you have to understand Emily is this ditzy, funny blonde..so she gets on the phone and she's like,
"Um.hello. Hi, I was wondering. Do yall sell GATS?"
I laughed my ass off, and did about 100 headstands.
And then she called a wedding photographer and asked if they did nude photos because she needed to make Christmas cards.
Haha, Emily you made my night.
Saturday night Emily had a birthday party...it was fun. Me, Emily, Kyli, Molly S., John Carrington, Seth, Chase, Hall, Coleman, Alex C., Cooper, Taylor, Lauren, Tom, and well a bunch of people were there, everyone got drunk except me and Coop..we rode into town to smoke because drinking is BAD.

So now I'm home, I'm supposed to go see Matt and Patrick today, but I don't have a ride anywhere so I might just sit here all fucking day.

No more news.

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[15 Dec 2004|08:17pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

There seems to be SO much fucking controversy on livejournal right about now.
It's nuts.
Here, let me start some more.

I was looking around some random journals today and read something that caught my eye and almost made it wet.
Drug talk. Usually I don't give a damn but today I realized what they've done to me.
Don't shit your pants, I'm not announcing my 'quitting of drugs', trust me that's not happening at all.
First subtopic, the stereotypical drug user..one who begins experiencing with drugs to 'take the load off' or 'release themselves from insecurities or problems' or 'to be cool'. I'll tell you now that I don't use drugs for any of those reasons..I do it as an experience for myself, a part of my life, something I grew up around in my household, something that seems almost alright to do. Something that makes up my life.
And I'm not looking at this situation and thinking, "Well drugs are ruining my life and I need to do something about it."
Well, I don't see drugs ruining my life right now.
In fact I see them making it a fuckload better.
My preferences in, well, everything, are probably much different than any other sixteen-year-old's. I do not drink, I do not enjoy getting drunk, I do not enjoy going out and being around alot of people I don't know, or sometimes even do.
There are lots of things about me that are completely different than your average Mary Jane.
NOTHING offends me, or at least it takes alot to.
I have about two main people I hang out with, and these people I see everyday, and it doesn't bother me, things being like that. I like to just sit around with Patrick and listen to Sublime.
So maybe I've changed a little, maybe I'm beginning to see the world the way everyone should. But I know that I see things clearly, I can read most people like a book, and I am by no means stupid. I will not put anyone down for something they do or even things they don't do.
If you don't like me doing drugs, then it's really none of your business.
And I know no one cares, except for the ONE person I could never say the above printed sentence to.
The person who brought all of this to my attention is the only person I would ever go through the trouble of all this explaining bullshit that I would normally never waste time doing.
Because what is there to say that's been said once, twice, shit, a million times.
I see that drugs took my best friend away from me.
Although I do see that they introduced me to the only person that's ever come close to filling her place.
Isn't it strange how the world works? How EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, whether you'd like to think so or not?
I don't regret many things I've done,
and this isn't one of them.
My whole situation,
really. Some people look at this, and everyone has their own opinions but I am perfectly happy with my life right now.
I have great friends, great oppritunities, high school in front of me, a chance to do things [even though I probably won't take them]. I have a mess of amazing, beautiful, sweet, generous, funny, down to earth friends that I would go nuts without.
Patrick, Emily, Beth, Matt, Cooper, Meckenzie, Annie, Andy, even some people I never see. I am just for once in my life happy with the way things are going.
Bottom line is, drugs have, if you will, 'enhanced' my life to say the least.
And if you really give a shit about me, you won't leave any stupid, asanine comments about how anti-drug you are, and drug users get sent to hell. And if you don't give a shit about me and are planning to say something like that, well get the fuck off my journal.

I am simply spending day by day doing what I like to do and looking forward to seeing my people this summer. Listening to good music and doing things I find fun, whether it's a drug or not.
[I'm already excited about Arkansas]
Speaking of whom I'm speaking of - my baby's momma [OK, well, Caleb's] is due in like, 4 days.
Goddamn Ashleigh, you're gonna have a kid.
You better call me the minute he pops out.
And I miss you.
And I miss Caleb. And Cat. And Panda. And Chel--ok, I've said all that a million times.
You guys know I'm missin you.
Not going crazy anymore, but missing you with all my heart.

Hey my birthday was last week.
And Christmas is coming up.
And so is the Christmas formal. [I have the CUTEST dress, and date - my sweet, shy litte freshie =D]

Brenna, thank you for the happy birthday.♥
Cooper, thank you for all the weed you've smoked with me in the past week.
Patrick, thank you for being sweet and uplifting, and making me laugh and HEY! Stop being a clit tease. You make me smile.

And another motherfucking thing.
Everyday I see horrible little girls at school with their pleated skirts shoved up their assholes making other less pretty girls lives' hell. Well JESSICA TUTT. First thing is you really aren't that fiiiiiiiiiine and no one wants your shit.
So stop trying to be a bitch, because you're really not good at it and no one wants to hear your horrible, stuck up, annoying mouth.
WOW. I haven't cared about anything like that in a long time.
It amazes me that if something along those lines were to happen to me, I wouldn't care. But when I see it happen to other girls, ooh shit. It burns me up.

I hope I make it to Bonneroo - Cooper is going there instead of beach week, and I'm not fucking going to beach week, so maybe I can go with that fine piece - o - ass.

My house is so cold I am amazed anything is alive in it.
Speaking of things being and not being alive in the house, my hamster finally died.
Weirdly enough, no one was upset.
We were all just like, 'word now we don't have to feed it'.

[shudder]Ohhh goddamn.

I plan on posting pictures tommorrow, of Paddy and I.
as Coop would say.

I'm out.

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[27 Nov 2004|12:13pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Thanksgiving break blows, bad.
I am doing nothing as usual..except not having Emily around which is different to say the least.

My birthday is in like, 10 days...whatsuuup.
I hate this cold weather. It makes me be in a bad mood all the time, and it does the same thing to Patrick so we've been aggitating lately,
I miss him. I haven't talked to him all day.

Sarah Elcan here I come.

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[25 Nov 2004|11:26am]
[ mood | hungry ]

So my brother just called, and said that in three weeks he will be coming up to visit me from Brazil. He also said that when he gets here we're going to get matching tattoos, and that I need to be thinking about what I would like.
Any suggestions?

Oh, and Happy Thanksgiving. For those of you who will have a happy one.


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[25 Nov 2004|08:53am]
[ mood | tired ]

On January 14th, 2005, we Americans who are furious with the current President will each send one grab-bag-sized bag of pretzels to the White House (just to show we care) at the following address:"

The White House
1600 Pennsylvania Avenue NW
Washington, DC 20500


Everyone do it.
Smoke on.

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[22 Nov 2004|02:01pm]
November 22, 2004.
This is the first entry in my new journal, the old one was simply BORING.

My name is AC [Ariane Caitlin] and I live in Virginia.
Yep. That's whatsup.
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